[This was written on October 10, 2007}
At the age of 18, I learned of my adoption, and I learned it by accident. It has been a DEEP & PAINFUL journey. I cannot say that it has always been easy, but with GODS help and a few faithful friends who UNDERSTAND what I go through ... there has been PEACE on this ride. I realize that ADOPTION is another part of ministry ... and ALL that I have BEEN through and YET have to GO through is ALL for GODS glory and for me to be a living Testimony that I may encourage someone else that they TOO CAN MAKE IT!
In the past year or so, I decided to search ... and in August of this year, I received some information that almost knocked me off my feet, but with the help of GOD, I was able to remain Standing! One thing I love about GOD, is when GOD does a thing, HE does it in a DOMINO affect ... it's like a Banana Peel ... People ask me: "T, how can you love your biological mother, whom you have never seen" ... I reply with a simple answer: "I love God too, and I have never seen Him either, BUT I KNOW He exist!" Below is a Poem that I received from a friend of mine who is also Adopted, and this really touched me. The words are Profound, Deep, Honest and TRUE!
Legacy of an Adopted Child
Once there were two women who never knew each other. One you do not remember, the other you call Mother.
Two different lives shaped to make you one, one became your guiding star, the other became your sun.
The first one gave you life and the second taught you to live it.
The first one gave you a need for love, the second was there to give it.
One gave you a nationality, the other gave you a name.
One gave you talent, the other gave you aim.
One gave you emotions, the other calmed your fears.
One saw your first sweet smile, the other dried your tears.
One saught for you a home that she could not provide, the other prayed for a child and her hope was not denied.
And now you ask me through your tears, Heredity or Environment, which are you a product of?
Neither my darling, neither.
Just two different kinds of love.
Author Unknown
I haven't met anyone in my Biological Family yet, I visited my biological grandmother's gravesite (can't begin to tell you how that felt, I never had the pleasure or the opportunity to meet her).I do have pictures of my 2 Brothers (what a blessing) and I know that in GOD'S time, a REUNION will take place. I know that GOD ANSWERS PRAYER!!!! AMEN? ... AMEN! I have learned what DEWAYNE WOODS sings about: "LET GO AND LET GOD ... for THAT'S WHEN THINGS START HAPPENING!"
I'm sorry you had to find out so late and by accident. I thank God that you were able to get some positive out of it though. Oh and I LOVE how you respond to the question "how can you love your biological mother, whom you have never seen?"
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